woke up really early this morning. Noah is having a sleep over at his cousin Charlie’s house. My mornings usually start with him crawling in the bed and reading the Bible with him. Since he’s not here, I had some extra time to read on my own. God gave me a great verse this morning. It is Romans 12:12. I dont think I’ve ever “seen” it before. Trials somehow have a way to cause Scripture to open up more than usual. That is one blessing attached to losing the baby and the cancer. God has been very near me. Last night as Joe and I were talking I told him I just wish God would take me on top of the mountain for an hour like he did with Moses. Just sit down face to face with me and tell me exactly what to do. I would do whatever He said, but I dont always know what to do. Lately I’ve been telling the Lord “You know my heart God”. Meaning, I dont have to tell Him all the details of what I’m dealing with inwardly. He just KNOWS. I love that about Him. So right now my heart just wanted to have clear instructions, a good sit down talk. Sabrina do this my daughter. Then I want a big hug from God and encouragement. But we walk by faith and not by sight, so I didnt get to go on the mountain top this morning like Moses. That was my teary eyed prayer last night. Instead I woke up and He came to me through Romans 12:12. It says “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer.” To that I say “Yes Sir, My Lord”
Be joyful in hope My hope is in Christ and His finished work on the cross for me. I can be joyful going through this because I know that I rest securely in His loving plan for my life and however many days He choses to give me. My confidence is not in this life or my health. My confidence is in Him and all that He is and all that He will continue to be to me and for me.
patient in affliction I’m not very good at this. I don’t know how many times I’ve said I’m just ready to get this over with and have this whole thing behind me. Well no more my friends. I will now be saying. Trying to be patient and learning all the lessons God wants to teach me.
faithful in prayer so far this part of the verse hasn’t been hard to apply. I love praying right now. God is truly my best friend. He has a listening ear each morning at 3 a.m. Don’t know why that’s when I need to talk but it usually is. Probably because if my heart was hurting at 3 in the afternoon I’d run to everyone else before I’d come to Him.
God is faithful. I cried to Him last night just asking Him. ????????? translated to I dont have a clue how to walk through this!! So this morning He told me Sabrina, my dear daughter be joyful in your hope in Me, be patient as you are walking through the grieve of losing the baby and the cancer treatment, and keep talking to Me. Thank you My Lord for calming my heart this morning. Thank you for answering all my panic filled questions last night, and thank you for Your loving hand to me. I love you. I love You. I love You.
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